I’d say I’m smiling on the outside
But that’s so cliche of me
Referencing hot topic tee shirt quotes
While I’m in my mid 30s

They say I should be grateful
For what this life has given me
But it’s nothing that I asked for
Because nothing in this life is free

The closer that I get to death the more I feel alive
Tell me why is suffering the one thing to remind me to keep trying
When there’s more drugs than memories, you start feeling ok
And when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down on me)
Well it’s just another Wednesday
And when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down)
Well it’s just another Wednesday

You wake up and you wash your face
and look into your eyes
And it’s all so strangely unfamiliar
you just can’t help but cry

And eating just feels like a chore
and work is agony
And there’s this pain deep in your stomach
From all those self destructive properties

The closer that I get to death the more I feel alive
Tell me why is suffering the one thing to remind me to keep trying
When there’s more drugs than memories, you start feeling ok
And when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down on me)
Well it’s just another Wednesday
And when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down...)
Well it’s just another Wednesday

Monday makes me wanna cry
(if i could...)
Tuesday just feels like a lie
(..then i would)
Wednesday's just the same old song
(if i could...)
Thursday's always just feel wrong
(..then i would)
Friday's only give false hope
(if i could...)
Saturday is just a joke
(..then i would)
Sunday comes and that’s the end
(if i could...)
Monday we all start again
(..then i would)
Everyday just feels the same
(if i could...)
Monotony thy name is pain
(..then i would)
It all weighs heavy on my brain
(if i could...)
it's slowly driving me insane
(..then i would)
There's a longing to be free
(if i could...)
But I don't know from what exactly
(..then i would)
A sinking emptiness in me
(if i could...)
For art, for music, just to be
(..then i would)

The closer that I get to death the more I feel alive
Tell me why is suffering the one thing to remind me to keep trying
When there’s more drugs than memories, you start feeling ok
when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down on me)
Well it’s just another Wednesday
And when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when it all just falls apart
And when it all just makes no sense
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when it all just breaks your heart
And when it all just feels too heavy
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when all you feel is hurt

And when you’d rather eat a bullet
(all comes crashing down on me)
Than face another day at work
And when it all just gets too much
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when all you do is cry
And when all you feel is pain
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when you just wanna die
And when everything is just too much
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when it gets too hard to breath
And when you just fucking hate yourself
(all comes crashing down on me)
And when you just wanna leave

The closer that I get to death the more I feel alive
Tell me why is suffering the one thing to remind me to keep trying
When there’s more drugs than memories, you start feeling ok
when it all comes crashing down
(all comes crashing down on me)
when it all comes crashing down
and when it all comes crashing down
(and it all comes crashing down)
Well it’s just another Wednesday.